Thanks for the feedback. I do love my wife and have never been with another woman. We have a great family too including kids and grandkids. But our married sex life waned and then stopped altogether. I don’t blame her; intercourse became too painful. She never liked giving head and consequently wasn’t very good at it. I began having some m2m experiences that really opened me up sexually. The first time another guy blew me, I thought “oh, that’s how it’s supposed to feel.” It’s also been great for my ego to be desired by other men, especially those younger than me. I found out I’m a total top. I feel like I’m only going to have a certain number of years left to enjoy sex so I take advantage of opportunities to safely indulge that side of myself. My ideal situation would be to stay married but have an open relationship, a “don’t ask, don’t tell” understanding that I’m getting my needs met elsewhere.