feeling like ive always been drifting and not sure how to stop.

  • feeling like ive always been drifting and not sure how to stop.

    Posted by Fadingechoes on August 3, 2021 at 9:09 pm

    Hey everybody. Long time real jock lurker here back from the good ol’ days of realjock. Its nice to see familiar faces and always bad ass to see new people here getting their fitness on.

    I have been struggling with depression for awhile now and have never really spoke to anybody about it online in fear that it would just lead to trolling. I feel like everyday is a repeat of the same in that I don’t get anything done that is really productive. Ive been working temp jobs for the past 2 years and feel like my life is going nowhere hanging on by a thread. Im currently in the process of seeing a therapist and yeah, I guess I needed to rant and hope somebody out reading this feels the same and can give me some advice. feel free to shoot me a message.

    joeclark replied 1 year, 12 months ago 5 Members · 5 Replies
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  • Defiant

    August 3, 2021 at 9:45 pm

    Sorry to hear about this. Depression can be debilitating. Your feelings are valid and the first step forward is realising that.

    Are you low-level depressed all the time or do you have better days and worse days?

  • Fadingechoes

    August 3, 2021 at 10:15 pm

    I have better and worse days. Im working as a temp worker for a bad ass company wirh little direction and limited training a majority of the day. Im told to build a report but new to the system with limited training over zoom to create these reports. Im about 4 weeks in and im nervous about losing the job. I graduated with my biz marketing degree and have been working temp jobs full time since covid hit, but none of them have hired me on full time. Im just stressed out, living at my parents, never really had my own place. I am just trying to not crack

  • HndsmKansan

    August 3, 2021 at 10:18 pm

    Hey good to see you here on RJ! Thanks for taking the time to talk about something that probably affects more people than what we all realize. Glad you are seeking help as well. We all have to feel like we are “making progress” in life, with our work, with ourselves. It really is important to see and measure, positive changes. I know I keep a list of priorities each day (written) so I feel a sense of accomplishment when I get those addressed. My work also varies from day to day, none is like the previous one (some are more challenging than others and some I have more flexibility). One other thing, make sure to enjoy the good times, make special events really “special”, things like birthdays, vacations, times out. Do it for you, after all you deserve it! Keep us up to date on how you are faring.

  • joeclark

    March 3, 2022 at 3:44 pm

    I believe you are more than one step ahead of many in analogous circumstances because you recognize that your feelings are caused *by your circumstances*. You’re feeling depressed because your job is depressing, according to what you tell us.

    While it seems counterintuitive, doing something each day marginally better than the previous day gives you objective facts to look back on. That could be one more push-up, five more pounds on squat (you *are* going to the gym, I trust?), journalling one more page. It could be as simple as making sure you get through 10 pages of a book you like, or listening to an entire episode of an interesting cultural podcast like the Perfume Nationalist, Red Scare, or What’s Left. (Dull normie podcasts are worse than staring at the boob tube.)

    Those objective daily achievements – you’ll be jotting them down so you can look back at them – will buttress you while you look around for a better job, or something else that might alleviate your depressing circumstances.

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